Too often I struggle with focusing on what I want to do with my life. I took for granted the simplicity of it all those years ago when I graduated from college. It was pretty cut and dry then: graduate and find a teaching job. Now? Not so much.
In the fall, three of my kids will be in school full-time leaving my sweet little toddler home solo. I can see the next life phase slowly coming into focus, but I feel so lost and without direction. There are many different business avenues I'd love to explore, interests I'd love to pursue, and, of course, continuing to grow the charity I love so dearly, but I struggle with focus and pinpointing the direction I want to move in.
It's so very, very frustrating and exhausting. For as long as I can remember my path has been relatively clear: student, teacher, mother...you get the picture. The lack of clarity drives me crazy and for a Type A, idea-filled mind like mine, it is kind of torturous. I know, I know. It's all about the journey, but sometimes it is hard to patient when you want to go full-speed ahead.
I am confident my teaching days are over, at least in a school setting. So much has changed since I left the profession eight years ago and there are so many laws and requirements I disagree with, I just don't think it's for me anymore. So, where does that leave me?
I can easily pinpoint what brings me happiness, joy, and fulfillment. I am just not sure how to transition it into more than an an unpaid hobby. I didn't major in business, after all, so whatever route I take will probably not be crystal clear or easy.
In the end, I want a career that makes me feel alive. I want to wake up each day feeling passionate and knowing my work is helping someone else. Most of all, I want to feel my purpose is being fulfilled without putting too much stress and strain on my family.
Let the journey continue...hopefully a clear direction will present itself soon.
