You have? So glad I'm not alone.
I am in a late thirties haze.
There are so many decisions to be made and paths leading to alternate routes in my life right now I simply don't know which way is up.
There is one thing I know for sure: I am slowly transitioning from the stay-at-home mom phase into new territory, yet that path and the final destination is such a mystery. There are obstacles, options, and dreams on the horizon, but I am finding it to be incredibly frustrating and overwhelming to overcome and achieve.
Life would be so easy if we could just set our mind to something and it happened, yet we all know that is far cry from the truth. It takes hard work and time to persevere and there are always setbacks along the way. The biggest hurdle is not succumbing to those obstacles. Finding a way to power through.
These obstacles have me second-guessing and doubting a lot these days.
I'm on that damn wheel and, while it may entertain the hamster, I am finding it to be an anxiety-producing, frustrating time in my life.
Transitioning out of this phase of life seems like a new beginning; one similar to the adventure I embarked on after my college graduation, yet filled with much more uncertainty. Back then I felt like I could do anything. Taking a risk was invigorating and fun. After all, what was the worst-case scenario? Failure? Being unhappy?
Way back when it was easy to bounce back. I was free to try again and the only person who felt any of the repercussions of the fallout was me. Such a far cry from life these days.
Once again I am restless, wondering what is coming next. Patience is not my strong suit and the itch for an adventure is waiting to be scratched. The desire to succeed is prominent.
I'll keep on running, but pray my feet will land on solid ground soon.
The journey continues.
